I know the week isn't over yet but it seems like it's lasted forever.  It seems like everything that could get thrown at me was thrown.  I've been letting everything get to me and by doing so making myself miserable.  I forget that I serve a mighty God who knows me and my circumstances, I forget that He is always faithful.  I forget that life is unpredictable and never seems fair but my God knows my future and I should take comfort in knowing this...but I forget.  I let life get in the way of using the trials I go through to glorify God.  I may feel stressed, hurt, tired, frustrated, angry or depressed but I can take all these emotions and cry out to God.  Instead I keep them bottled up inside thinking that if I ignore them long enough then they'll just dissappear. This shows how much of a control freak I am.  Letting it go and giving it to God and trusting that It'll all work out for His glory seems too easy for me.  We as sinful humans complicate everything including God's love for us.  His love in unconditional.  Yet we try to tack on stipulations and hoops to jump through that are so wrong.  I was reminded of a verse by a sweet friend last night, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."  The circumstances of our lives as Christians are ordained by God, there is no such thing as chance.  We as humans will not understand the circumstances that we're put in but the Holy Spirit does.  God brings us to places, around certain people for a definited purpose through the Holy Spirit in us.  I just have to trust God.  It's really just that simple.  I may not understand what or why i'm going through some of the things i'm going through but God does and I should find comfort in knowing this. Even though it seems like i'm in a constant battle I know my God wins in the end.