Wednesday, April 4, 2012

     I can be such a control freak sometimes. Ok, most of the time. :) Lately my "plans" have been completely turned upside down.  Two years ago I had a totally different picture of what right now would look like.  God had other plans for me. I thought I'd be close to graduating with a degree of some kind, working somewhere I actually enjoy working, have a whole lot more money saved, and even married or at least engaged.  It's funny how God can screw up your "perfect" plan of how your life "should" go. I'm not in school right now, I'm still working at a job I would rather not work at, my bank account is depressing, and I'm single.   Looking back at where I was headed and where I am now, I honestly wouldn't change anything. Nothing.    My God knows exactly what He's doing.  If I kept going down the path I was going, I would be miserable.  I had no idea what I wanted in life. I thought I did, I thought I had it all figured out. I forget how God knows me.  He knew I didn't have a clue...but he still let me think I did. I've learned so much these past two years. I've made so many mistakes and made so many dumb decisions, but God brought me through them all and taught me valuable lessons in each one of them.  I'm so happy.  I haven't been this happy in a long time. The funny thing is, I haven't got a clue what I'm doing or where I'm headed in life. This is exactly where I should be. Totally dependent on God, I'm content in giving him complete control and it's awesome. :)