I know the week isn't over yet but it seems like it's lasted forever.  It seems like everything that could get thrown at me was thrown.  I've been letting everything get to me and by doing so making myself miserable.  I forget that I serve a mighty God who knows me and my circumstances, I forget that He is always faithful.  I forget that life is unpredictable and never seems fair but my God knows my future and I should take comfort in knowing this...but I forget.  I let life get in the way of using the trials I go through to glorify God.  I may feel stressed, hurt, tired, frustrated, angry or depressed but I can take all these emotions and cry out to God.  Instead I keep them bottled up inside thinking that if I ignore them long enough then they'll just dissappear. This shows how much of a control freak I am.  Letting it go and giving it to God and trusting that It'll all work out for His glory seems too easy for me.  We as sinful humans complicate everything including God's love for us.  His love in unconditional.  Yet we try to tack on stipulations and hoops to jump through that are so wrong.  I was reminded of a verse by a sweet friend last night, "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose."  The circumstances of our lives as Christians are ordained by God, there is no such thing as chance.  We as humans will not understand the circumstances that we're put in but the Holy Spirit does.  God brings us to places, around certain people for a definited purpose through the Holy Spirit in us.  I just have to trust God.  It's really just that simple.  I may not understand what or why i'm going through some of the things i'm going through but God does and I should find comfort in knowing this. Even though it seems like i'm in a constant battle I know my God wins in the end. 

     So, today was pretty amazing. Me and two other lovely ladies went and gave out homemade roses and Valentine's Day cards to some sweet widows at a nursing home.  Being single on a Romantic Holiday can be depressing but think about women who have lived a long life with the man that they love and then lose him. Think of how painful that would be to spend Valentine's Day thinking about the love of your life that is no longer living.  They were so thankful that we would think of them and take time to make such a simple gift. Not only was I encouraged by loving on these sweet ladies I was also encouraged by the ladies I went with.  I've never really had close girl friends...I have always had guy friends just because girls can be so hard to befriend. I've been praying for a while that God would send me friendships that could grow me and hold me accountable. I'm pretty sure He has answered this prayer. The conversations we had going to and from the nursing home were so good and so encouraging. These girls have helped me in my walk with Christ as well as getting through some rough trials these past few months. I'm so excited to see how God is going to use me and these girls this semester! I have a feeling He will be putting us out of  our comfort zones alot but that's totally cool with me.
     On another note, I hope everyone has a great Valentine's day. Wether you're single or have that special someone. If you're single, take the day to appreciate your singleness and thank God for the person He has waiting for you. If you're in a relationship be thankful you have that person and you should really be treating them special everyday not just Vday. ;)  I'm going to be spending tomorrow with some awesome ladies and thanking God that He's given me such awesome friends.  Happy Valentine's Day! :)